Morning Journaling
Today's date carries the numerology of 7 (7 + 8 + 2 + 0 + 2 + 6 = 25 → 2 + 5 = 7). Seven is my Life Path number, and in the Tarot it corresponds with The Chariot—a card of movement, determination, self-mastery, and purposeful direction. In numerology, 7 is associated with wisdom, introspection, truth, spiritual understanding, discernment, inner knowing, and the pursuit of deeper meaning. It reminds me that true movement begins from within; as clarity deepens, the path ahead naturally comes into focus.
I'm standing in my power.
I'm authoring my scaffolding.
Changes are coming.
Each ripple caused by my actions leads to those changes.
Clarity is coming in.
Fear is washing away.
The pieces of my scaffolding are building in front of my eyes.
Stability.
Abundance.
Confidence.
Self-worth.
Clarity.
...and the knowledge that I author it all.
1 year ago today
1 year ago I started my nervous system healing. I didn’t know what I was doing, how I was doing it or frankly THAT I was doing it. June 25, 2025 is what I call “Ego Death Day”.
It was the day I realized my nervous system had loops I had to break. Loops created by life experiences, childhood traumas, fear and expectations I had put on myself. I also learned I cannot break these loops the traditional way. Mindfulness - Nope. Affirmations - Nope (I call those pink skies). Micro actions - this one is the least effective. Last time I tried using micro actions to disrupt my nervous system I washed 1 hiking boot and forgot I had put my coffee maker in my bedroom closet for 2 days.
We all have to find our own ways to heal our nervous system. I need friction…a lot of it. Others can work with the traditional methods. At the end of the day, I learned that healing our nervous systems is what opens the door to everything. Manifestations, healthy habits, confidence, self love and self worth, joy in life and my favorite, stepping into your power.
Sometimes being Delulu is the answer
Delu-lu and Thriving is the theme.
It doesn't matter if my path looks obscure, unattainable, or flat out delusional.
It's my path.
I create it.
I author it.
I observe it.
By making soul aligned choices.
When I make those choices, I FEEL the difference.
(I do not feels things somatically most days)
I feel I stand taller.
I feel I hold myself head up more.
I feel I walk with more confidence.
I feel lighter.
I feel untouchable.
All because I chose to listen to my soul.
My body listened to my soul.
Simple things
Eat fruit.
Learn how to take better care of my skin.
And sometimes choose water over coffee.
These aren't grand scale choices.
They're quite small.
But their impact is MASSIVE.
Delulu & Thriving is now my life's title.
My verbal transcription of this morning’s download
all this talk, you know, the all the people that I've listened to on Quantum And the manifestation. Is the all the things that are agreed upon. That our consciousness is connected. That we can instantly change anything. That it's all at our fingertips. We all have the ability And that everything every possible timeline out there already exists. We just have to you know? Pick and choose. The things that don't always match is you have a handful of people that stress the subconscious as where you need to fix the problems. And then you have the ones that are talk more about like good Goddard, Neville Goddard. Is good at this, where it's embodiment. You have Alan Watts who seems to be a little bit of both. You know? And then, of course, the quantum field and how it works and stuff, and that's all agreed upon. But I think the usage of it gets a little different between the different sides. L what I was saying last night, what I agree on, is we don't need Our subconscious, our conscious spiritual energy that exists in the quantum field That collective of it is connected. And it's probably what is causing or creating the honestly, I think it's what creates the quantum field or what the quantum field is made of, however you wanna it and look at it. It's kind of all the same. And it's trying to constantly and I've heard this once. It's constantly trying to give us everything we desire. It's trying to give me my $800,000,000 right now today. It's trying to give me the investor. It's trying to give me my rescue bulldog. It's trying to give me my healthy body. And lot of people say you have to that reprogramming it That's when you go Joe Dispenza is one of them. You go into that trance state and you put a new seed in there, you put a new code in there. You don't have to do that. You don't it's not that hard. The hard part is that we have our nervous system ultimately gets in the way in our just our 3 d mind. And our 3 d mind really is our nervous system. At that point. And I've been hearing a lot of people talking about, you know, the narrator who, you know, I'm I didn't consciously think about the fact that I'm kind of you know, swaying back and forth right now. I didn't consciously go, but then my brain after I started, recognizes what I'm doing, that narrator. At this point, no one tells you who that narrator is. They just say when you realize that that narrator is just your thoughts and you're in control of your thoughts, That's the closest I've ever heard it being called out. It's your fucking nervous system. That is your nervous system. That is the one. And all those ugly little thoughts and the scary things and the fears and stuff. That pop in your head when something happens. It's all your fucking nervous system. Shut the nervous system up. Unfortunately, because we are so programmed and so conditioned to see everything the way it is and live in lack and live in survival, the majority of us Our system our nervous system only knows that, and that's where the alignment and embodiment happens. And that's why affirmations work for some people because that's how they clear their nervous system. That's the ultimate key. Is finding whatever works for you to clear your nervous system of that shit. For me, I have to understand all this stuff. I have to be able to sit there and say, this is how it all works. Kind of like when I started working in firearms, I was afraid of them. But then when I learned to take one down and how all the components work and how they work together and how, you you know, what's safe and what's not. Like, reality, not propaganda. I was no longer afraid of guns. It's the same fucking thing. We all have to find our own thing.